What if I fall? Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?

Transfer day had arrived and we travelled to London to collect two precious little embryos followed by the long wait to see if our second round of IVF and all the tailored treatment I had received at the Zita West Clinic, under Dr George Ndukwe, had worked. Click the title to read more...

Trying again…

I know this particular blog is 'heavily medicated' and so I am apologising in advance however, in order to stick to my promise of sharing my story and its reality, I couldn't find a way to avoid some medical jargon. We had met with Dr George and now had a plan for our next cycle. It was all beginning again but, although we had no idea where this round would lead us, we felt in safe hands and put our complete trust in the clinic. IVF is a long and complicated process. Here, I talk about the first stage of our next IVF round, trying to explain it as simply as possible despite lots of long, complicated drug names. Click the title to read more...

Dr George, George, Calling Dr George

After our first round of IVF failed, we were at a loss as to what to do next. I had been told lots about the Zita West Fertility Clinic and, in particular, Dr George Ndukwe - who is a pioneer in immune therapy and Natural Killer Cells. I knew we had to see him. This is the first part of our journey with this clinic. It still wasn't an easy journey and came with its fair share of heartache but, ultimately, the amazing team at Zita West helped us start our family, resulting in our darling daughter. Click on the title above to read more...

I’VF Failed

I'VF Failed. After an already gruelling journey trying to start a family, we finally reached a point whereby IVF was our next option. We were petrified, not having any real understanding about what we were going to go through. In this blog, I talk about our first round of IVF and the devastation IVF failure leaves behind. It's part of our story and our journey towards later IVF success. I hope, very much, that it helps others, who have experienced similar, to know that their feelings and emotions are normal and that they are not alone. I am also hopeful that this honest account will give a little understanding to those have not experienced IVF for themselves in order to support those who do. Click the title above to read more...

When They’re Expecting and You’re Not

Other people's pregnancy announcements were the hardest. I viewed everyone (even those I didn't know) with severe trepidation, as I was petrified that I would be caught off guard and be brutally thumped in the gut with a severe case of 'pregnancy announcement-itis'. Spending a long time recalling how I felt during this time, I have tried to share some of how I felt in these moments in addition to considering what it can be like coming from the other side of things too. Click the title above to read more...

Breaking the Silence

I don't think I am ever going to be able to find the exact words I want to entirely explain how miscarriage and baby loss makes you feel. It's unique. Those who suffer miscarriage and baby loss can only truly understand the boundless heartache and emptiness it brings, along with the silence that surrounds it. By writing about it, I'm aiming to break some of that silence and help others to gain a little more knowledge as to how someone might feel. I am also hopeful that this might provide a little comfort to others, going through similar, knowing that they are not alone. Click the title above to read more...

The test of tests

Finally admitting that we needed some medical help was painful. It was something that I didn't want to accept. I had to though in order to move forward in our journey to have a family. The 'tests' were the next test we faced (and certainly not the last). Click the title above to read more...

Have you tried…?

Have you tried...? Trying to get pregnant is the fun part. This was often said to me. Obviously, they'd never been me trying to get pregnant! Click the title to read more...